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October 30 Today's VersesOk, here we go!! Are you ready? Here's the scripture exchange for today. I was reading in Jeremiah 32. Here are the verses that jumped out at me. All of you reading, feel free to post your comments and read the Bible for yourself. Also, let me know what you're reading. Let's share the Word of God with each other and learn from each other's insights! :) Jeremiah 32 32:17 - Ah Lord GOD! behold, thou hast made the heaven and the earth by thy great power and stretched out arm, and there is nothing too hard for thee: Amen!! Nothing is too hard for God! After all, he is the creator of everything. He is in control and he holds the answers and the power in his hands. 32:39 - And I will give them one heart, and one way, that they may fear me for ever, for the good of them, and of their children after them: 32:40 - And I will make an everlasting covenant with them, that I will not turn away from them, to do them good; but I will put my fear in their hearts, that they shall not depart from me. 32:41 - Yea, I will rejoice over them to do them good, and I will plant them in this land assuredly with my whole heart and with my whole soul. The Lord rewards us when we put him first and seek him. When we are obedient and are centered on him, he will bless us. After all, he that made everything, and knows us best, has the best judgment. Doesn't it make sense to trust him and do what he says. "Father knows best." ;) October 29 REAL LoveI think I am going to start something new with this blog. In addition to my old writings, as well as new ones, and general blog postings, I will also be posting sermon notes. Every Sunday after church, I will get on here and share what the Lord had to say to me, so I won't forget, and so others can benefit too. "Church" may seem like a blah word to some, but to me it's GREAT! CHURCH is exciting!! :) Read on!! There's more to church than just sitting in a chair or pew! Oh, I am also going to take a suggestion from my friend Heather and start a "Scripture Exchange." ;) I will do my best to post a scripture/devotion of some sort, so everyone can read, comment, and share. That way, we'll all be reading, learning, and growing from the Bible and others' interpretations and experiences! God bless you all! (BTW, you can also view this blog, and more, on my myspace http://www.myspace.com/missa_loves_the_lord ). REAL LOVE Church. The very mention of the word is very exciting to some. Others, however, may automatically think of boredom. Church may seem like a blah word, or idea. After all, most of us have the memory of: "Well, my parents always MADE me go to church." But, what starts out as an act of obligation can really turn into an exciting and uplifting habit. J I, for one, love going to church! Today, it was baptism Sunday. I LOVE watching baptisms! I love watching people get baptized, as a sign of commitment to the Lord. Watching a baptism is like watching someone be reborn, which is why it is so important to be baptized once you get saved. Today, I watched as several people, including a young child, get baptized. For me, it's a special blessing to watch a child get baptized. Children are so innocent, receptive, and pure of heart. This little boy talked about how he just went to church because he parents made him. He was resistant, until he learned about being obedient to the Lord. His attitude began to change, and then, he longed to go to church! He couldn't wait to learn and experience God, and fellowship with other believers. He talked about how, once you get saved, you just want to be like Jesus, and his Holy Spirit comes to live in you and speak to you. You're better able to resist temptation, and you're more connected with Christ. Seeing that boy be baptized reminded me of why Christ wants us to be like little children. Children aren't contaminated and corrupted by the world. They see the good in people and they are pure of heart. They are open and receptive, and they have so much room in their hearts for love. Love is also what one of our pastors talked about today. Love, REAL LOVE, is what brings meaning to this life. Of course, the world has it's own version of love. In fact, the word love is so over used that it has almost lost its meaning. It's hard to know what real love is when all you hear about is some new car, food, or any other material thing that you'll just "absolutely love it." Lust is probably a more accurate word. Our society lusts and desires after things, but real love hasn't much to do with things, it has to do with people. GOD IS LOVE. That is the core of what love is. Change that "is" to an equal sign. God = Love and likewise, Love = God. To experience real love is to know God, and what he has done for us. Love is sending your own son to die for sinful people who don't deserve it. Love is forgiving and forgetting horrible unspeakable sin that truly deserves just punishment in hell. THAT is UNCONDITIONAL AND PURE LOVE!! God's love is about mercy and grace. We receive it when we accept Christ as our Savior, and our lives are radically changed. It's also contagious. When you are loved with a love like that, you can't help but share. Who wouldn't want to talk about it? That's why I speak of it so much. Do you want to know that kind of love? Or, perhaps you know that love, but you haven't told anyone in a while. I encourage you to share, and to know that love. Just as the prodigal son in the Bible was welcomed home by his father, so we are also welcomed home by God. His arms are open and waiting. Just like the prodigal son, who squandered his father's wealth and blessings on wild living, we have also sinned against our father, and drug his good name through the mud. However, a parent's love for their child is strong and unbreakable. True unconditional love does not abandon or condemn. True love forgives and embraces that which was lost and has been found again. Praise the Lord! He REALLY LOVES US!!! AMEN! Passing On the BlessingLast night, as many of you know, my husband and I went to the Jeremy Camp concert. When I got home, I just couldn’t go to sleep until I wrote down some things I have been pondering in my heart. I just had to talk about the concert, and the things Jeremy Camp said and sang about. If anyone reading this doesn’t know who Jeremy Camp is, you are missing out. His music is truly blessed by God. In fact, that is one thing he talked about. He talked about how God moved him to write songs to touch GOD’S heart, and that God would then use it to touch the hearts of others. I was just awed by that, because this artist is truly humble, and has his heart in the right place. He is always putting God first, and giving HIM all the glory, and that is why his music is so powerful and inspiring. He doesn’t lose sight of what or why he sings. He doesn’t give himself the credit, or act like a spoiled celebrity, corrupted and distracted by fame. No, he is a humble man, doing the will of God. He treats people, and the audience, as his friends; his brothers and sisters in Christ. His music touches the hearts of others, because it touches the heart of God first. His songs are meaningful prayers, straight from the heart. They are deep and meaningful and really helps a person pour out their heart, and connect with God. In fact, he also reminded everyone that the one reason we are here on this earth, is to live for Jesus; to love, serve and follow Him, and to share with others to do the same. Period. He said he didn’t want to look back on his life, when it’s all over, and be like “What just happened?” And he certainly won’t. He is living a life of purpose, and honoring God with his talents. There is so much depth in the lyrics of his songs. His wife, Adie, also sings. Like Jeremy, she also has a heart for the Lord, and makes the songs her prayers. I have so much love and respect for them, and praise God for the difference they are making in the lives of the people who hear their music. For those of you who don’t know, Jeremy Camp was previously married to a woman named Melissa. Sadly, she died of cancer not long into their marriage. It was a rough time for him. But, God always uses the hard times to make one stronger, as he did with Jeremy. He explained how he finally understood the gravity of his wife’s words when she had told him that if only one person could know Jesus through what she had gone through, and her dying of cancer, then it would all be worth it. We all have a purpose. Even if we only reach ONE person and bring them to the Lord in our lifetime, it is all worthwhile. We all have a duty to fulfill. That is why I am writing more, and posting things on this site. I want my God given talents to bless others. Regardless of how small, or insignificant, a simple blog may feel to me, I just never know who I might touch. Even now, I think about how Jeremy’s words, and his music, has blessed me. Then, it spreads. I am telling you all about it, and that might even go further, as you may tell someone about it. God multiplies the blessings. One blesses another, and then it keeps getting passed on. HOW AMAZING!! As I am typing, I have his songs playing in my mind. I am hearing the chorus of “I still believe”: “I still believe in your faithfulness. I still believe in your truth. I still believe in your Holy Word. Even when I don’t see, I still believe.” It just blows my mind to think about it, and sing it to the Lord. It’s just a prayer and a praise to the Lord; telling him that no matter what happens, I’m still going to believe. I’ll still believe he is good, faithful, true, and just. I will still believe in his promises and his word, no matter what. Even when I don’t understand the reasons behind everything that happens, I will STILL believe, because God is God and he reigns! AMEN! In addition to that, I am also thinking about his other song “Walk by Faith.” The chorus goes: “”I will walk by faith even when I cannot see, because this broken road prepares your will for me.“ He was talking about being so broken, when his wife died. And the Lord told him that it was good, because he could use him. God molds us in those times, and brings us through the pain. They are hard times, but they are times of growth, reflection, and they draw us nearer to God because we are more open to him. We are aware of our need for him, when we have to stop and deal with the problems of life. We cry out to him, and he comes down and fulfills our needs. Being broken makes us humble and vulnerable. Sometimes, that is the only way we can best let the Lord in. When we get brought through the hard times, we can then share it with others, just as Jeremy does with every crowd that comes to his concert. He gets the awesome opportunity of being a witness to God’s mercy, grace, and love. He gets to minister to people from all walks of life. Even if I never get to be in the position where he is, to reach so many people so often, I will still do my part. Every person is a part of the body of Christ. He can’t do without our contributions! What may seem small and insignificant to you, may mean the WORLD to someone else!!! Do what you are meant to do! Share and give of yourself, and your talents!! Rejoice in the hard times, because God will use them for good! As hard as it may be, thank him and praise him for the bad times, because those are the times where getting close to God is easier and the most vital. He will mold you into what he wants you to be. Just like Jeremy said, it all comes down to what you do for Jesus. Period! Nothing else in this life really matters. Life is about Jesus, and the rest are details. That’s why I say this to myself: “I may only be ‘one’ but I’ll be ‘one that matters.’” I don’t know if I heard that somewhere before, or if God just gave that to me out of the blue, but I say that to myself to remind me of my purpose and of my worth. There are people out there that need what I have to give, and likewise, there are people out there that I need to minister to me too, like Jeremy Camp. When we all do our part, we are all helping each other, and the circle goes unbroken. If we can all hold on to the fact how vital we are to the kingdom of God, our lives will be more fulfilling, and mankind will benefit from our God given gifts!! October 27 When Pride Makes You SickHere is another writing of mine. I wrote this a couple years ago. Sunday, October 10, 2004 When Pride Makes You Sick No one likes being sick. In fact, I don't know of anyone who would WANT to be sick, other than wishing that they could be sick instead of a child or someone they love. I was sick just recently, and while it wasn't enjoyable, it was a surprisingly enlightening experience. While I was sick, I couldn't help but think of ways having the flu is similar to every day life. I felt awful, and miserable. To make matters worse, Mitch was also sick, so it was extra hard because neither one of us had much energy to take care of ourselves, each other, or our son. We sometimes muttered, "Oh, why do we have to be sick, and at the same time?" Sure, it's a sad and unfortunate situation, but when you think about it, it's not as bad as you can make it to be. I think sometimes, in a small but powerful way, being sick can be good. I mean it as in you appreciate what it's like to be "well." After you recover, you feel grateful and begin to cherish your health again and try to do things to better safeguard it. I think it is also a time where God allows you to be sick because he wants to wake you up in some way. In our case, I think he wanted me to take a time out to focus and slow down. Mitch and I both are always on the move and doing things and I think that sometimes, when God can't get through to us, he has to allow us to get sick in order for us to finally stop and listen to Him. Then, as God helps us purge the sickness from our body, He also makes us aware of the sin we have to "vomit" from our lives. Then, we begin to clean things up and sterilize what we can. We wash our clothing, bedding, dishes, and banish the germs from coming back into our bodies. That is the same way we should banish sin from our lives, giving it a one way ticket out of here and burning the bridges that would have us go backward! I thought about all this and we stopped feeling so sorry for ourselves. Being whiny and pitiful doesn't help anyways. I mean, my goodness, there are worse things! Then, I talked to Mitch about how minimally, and temporarily unbearable this was compared to how it must be in Hell. Right then, we were sick, thirsty, and hungry, but really couldn't fix the problem at the moment, but knew we would eventually get better. That, at least, is a comfort and a relief. However, if you die without Christ and go to Hell, there IS NO RELIEF…. EVER!!! There is no water to quench your thirst, there is no medication to stop the pain and it continues FOREVER! It's hard to comprehend "forever" and to never know relief, but I never want to find out what THAT is like. There is eternal LIFE and eternal DEATH and while you would think that no one would WILLINGLY choose pain and suffering, some people, whether by choice or by ignorance, choose death. This makes me very sad. I began thinking more about how no one likes to be sick, but sometimes are sick and don't even know or acknowledge it. For example, you can contract a cold and not even know you have it until the symptoms show up later. Then, when they do, you may just deny that you are sick, and refuse to take medicine or go to the doctor. That's silly though isn't it? Wouldn't you WANT to get better, especially before it gets worse? I remember one time when I had that mindset. I was pregnant and started getting a cold, but didn't want to take medicine because I was afraid that the medicine would hurt my unborn child. So, I waited for it to get better, but it didn't. Eventually, it turned into the worst cold that I ever remember having. By that time, I had to take medicine that was a little bit stronger than over the counter medicine. The doctor said it shouldn't hurt the baby, and I did take the medicine and get better. I felt stupid for waiting so long when I could have taken a medicine sooner that maybe wouldn't have been as risky as a prescription. Now, anyone hearing this knows that what I did was a silly mistake and could easily say, "Why did you wait so long? Why didn't you take care of it before it got to that point? Take care of yourself!" I didn't like being sick and I didn't want to be sick anymore, but I put off treatment. That is pretty foolish, but I CHOSE to be sick by NOT CHOOSING to become well. It makes me think of another way that we, as people, put off treatment in our lives. Sometimes, our lives and lifestyles are "sick." Sometimes we don't know we are sick, and sometimes we do but then deny it. Neither of those things does us any good. We need to take care of the "sickness" in our lives before it gets worse, because it WON'T just get better or go away without "treatment." Our pride and stubbornness is a CHOICE to STAY sick and a CHOICE not to get well. It applies to all areas of our life, whether it is overeating that in turn threatens other areas of health, to waiting to see if a mysterious lump or area or some sort we go away or get better before getting checked out. Refusing any kind of medical, physical, or psychological help only puts us in danger, and our lives are too precious to take lightly, especially just because of "pride." Some may even say to themselves, that's it's "too late" and that they're too far gone. I think that's it's only "too late" when you ARE gone. Don't wait! The time is NOW for "treatment," both physically, and spiritually. Jesus is the GREAT PHYSICIAN and He is the Healer. Let Him cleanse the sickness and sin from you and deliver you from your personal sickness. Don't wait for it to "go away" or "get worse" before you do something about it. This is especially important if you don't even KNOW the doctor yet! Maybe I am too direct, but sometimes, the direct approach is the only one that gets through. Many have heard of "Dr. Death." But the Dr. Death that I am speaking of, isn't the one that helped elderly people commit suicide. The Dr. Death I am speaking of is Satan. I would rather go to the Dr. of LIFE than the Dr. of Death wouldn't you? If you choose life, you reject death. But wavering or passively deciding NOT to choose IS, in fact, a choice for death. Ignorance isn't bliss and faking ignorance or commitment to truth is even worse! I don't want anyone to be sick and then continue to live in ETERNAL sickness and darkness because they refused to accept the Good Doctor into their life. You just can't wait until it's too late! Choose LIFE! CHOOSE CHRIST! October 26 Abnormally SpecialPlease sign this petition to end partial birth abortion. And, don't forget to read this rest of this blog (it's something a wrote quite a while back). When babies are aborted, we lose valuable human life, and the treasures within them. Even in the case of abnormalities, these children should never be killed. My son is hearing impaired, and while he's not "perfect" in the eyes of the world, he is EVERYTHING to us, and to the Lord: http://www.reclaimamerica.org/pages/Petitions.aspx?ptid=14&memid=1282871 Abnormally Special I am not normal. There, I said it. Are you surprised? You shouldn't be. No one is normal. In fact, I believe, that THERE IS NO NORMAL! I have come to understand an enlightening truth. And, like Jesus says, "the truth shall set you free!" The reason I am not "normal" is because I am different. I can't possibly be normal, because no one is exactly like me. No one has my fingerprints. My fingerprints are unique only to me. The same goes for my DNA, and voiceprint, and everything else that is uniquely me. God made me different, and special. He set me apart. He made me with a special plan in mind. He gave me all the qualities and features that he wanted me to have and made me one of a kind! When you think about that, it truly makes you feel great! No two people are EXACTLY alike, NOT EVEN TWINS!! There are differences in EVERYONE! Therefore, "normal" cannot exist! For something to be "normal" there has to be a set example. The only thing I can think of that is "normal" is body temperature. It is said that the normal body temperature is 98.6 degrees, but even then, a person's body temperature may be "normal" at slightly above or below that. With that being said, we also do this in society. We compare others to what is normal. However, I don't think I understand where that comparison comes from. How can we judge who is normal? What and who do we set the standards by? Since we are all different, how can there even BE a normal? It wouldn't be fair to compare anyone! The only one I compare myself to, and set my standards by, is Jesus. And, let me tell you, I am SO FAR from NORMAL!! Jesus is perfect and since no one else is perfect, how can we judge each other? The differences are what make us unique. Also, since God is perfect, how can we say that a person he created is somehow not normal? GOD DOES NOT MAKE MISTAKES!! God doesn't say, "Oops, I didn't mean to goof up on that human." God makes us all just the way he wants us, and in a way that will bring glory to Him. We don't always understand His ways because His thinking is so much beyond our own. It is hard to comprehend sometimes why God would do things like allow a baby to be born with a deformity or allow something to happen to someone that somehow makes them different either on the outside or inside. However, we are all still made up from the same building blocks of life. A physical flaw, or any flaw, doesn't change that we are a person, and that God loves us and has a plan for us. So, as it says in Romans 9:20-21, "But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?'" Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?" Suppose that I had six blocks. They are all the same size and they are all a different color. Then, suppose that three of them were in one pile, and three of them were in another pile. Maybe one pile has a green, yellow, and red block. Another, has a blue, orange, and purple block. Everything about the blocks are the same, except for their colors and the groups in which they are categorized. Does that mean that one group is better than the other? Is one group of blocks inferior just because of the different colors in their group compared to the other? No, of course not. There are the same number of blocks in each group, and they are all the same size, just different in color. If all the blocks were the same in every aspect, there would be no diversity, and it wouldn't be as colorful. I have only recently come to understand such things. Personally, I had always wondered why God made "special" kids. I always wondered why God would allow a child to be born mentally or physically challenged. Wouldn't it just be easier if they fit our society's mold? Wouldn't their lives and our lives be so much better? God caused me to finally make sense of all this. He showed me his infinite wisdom in how he chooses to create people. These "special" kids are not mistakes. God made them on purpose and for a purpose. He doesn't fudge up on someone in the womb and then say, "Oops, can I start over?" He contemplates each life he creates very carefully. And, these "special" kids are rightly deemed special, for an EXTRA SPECIAL reason! Saying a challenged child is "special" isn't a socially polite term, as I had always thought. God has shown me why they TRULY are special! I see how in 1 Corinthians 22-25, "On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and ha given greater honor to the parts that lacked it." That verse is such a powerful insight to me! How else can you explain why people with handicaps are such inspirations to us "normal" people? We who have all the ability in the world usually don't do NEARLY AS MUCH as these "special" people who are regarded as rejects by many people. Just like is says in the verse, however, these are the people that God appoints to be our inspirations and our teachers. They are the ones we should cherish and regard the most, not toss aside. God gives these people SPECIAL HONOR and how great it is that I am blessed with a child that is ESPECIALLY HONORED!! My son was born with a hearing impairment, and no one can explain why. It was so shocking too, because everything else about him seemed "normal." He passed all other types of tests. He was also physically beautiful by society's standards. His features are so flawless and pleasant to look at. He has blue eyes, and an adorable smile. He also has a dazzling personality to go along with it. All those wonderful things about him are evident to all. Yet, some tend to focus in on the thing that is most obvious and disturbing to some. They think that if this one thing about him were "fixed" that he could be so much better off. This is so absurd! He can do so much with what he has, and he doesn't need to be "fixed" in order to do what God has planned him for! Before he received his hearing aids, he looked like any other "normal" child, and no one would have even known that he had a so-called handicap. It's amazing how things change when you put hearing aids in his ears. People look at him in a different way. It is the first thing they notice, and I think it is because most people don't see younger kids with hearing aids. For some reason, many assume they are tubes in his ears from an ear infection. However, they are not tubes (and when a child has tubes, you can't see them anyways). His hearing loss is not caused by an ear infection or blockage, so they can't drain or unclog his ears, because there is nothing there to unclog. Maybe that is why people don't understand about the permanence of his hearing loss. They just assume that it will go away like most childhood hearing loss caused by a temporary illness. However, this is not the case here. So, then people ask about the cochlear implant. Even that is not a cure all. It can help, but it doesn't completely cure hearing loss. I don't say these things to discourage people from asking questions about him and his development. I say this to bring awareness and understanding. His hearing aids serve the same purpose as glasses, only his kind of enhancer is for his ears and not his eyes. Yet, it isn't as socially acceptable. It's almost as people are afraid of the deaf and hearing impaired world. People fear what they don't understand, and that is why I want to do as much as I can to encourage awareness. Nothing thrills me more than when people inquire about my son's blessing. Yes, it IS a blessing, and I embrace this gift that God has given to us and to him. Just like Job said in verse 2:10, "…Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" And, of course, as Paul said in Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things, God works for the good for those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." I know that I absolutely grin from ear to ear as I explain to others his condition and how blessed we have all been by it. I am absolutely thrilled that God has picked my son to be "special" and to be his honored chosen one to do so much good. He chooses the "weak" among us, that is as the "world" sees them, to be so much more!! I know there are people that do not understand how this is a blessing. I know that people have a hard time accepting differences and people with special needs. I was once one of them. However, the ones who can and do understand are those that share the same love for Christ as we do. They are the ones who see others like Christ sees us. They accept others for who they are and how God made them, just as God accepts us. God could have easily looked at each and every one of us and turned away. God could have just looked at us as the imperfect, sinful human beings that we are and say, "Well, you are not normal by my highest standards. You are not perfect, and cannot enter heaven. I want nothing more to do with you." I praise the Lord because that is not what he did at all! Yes, we are sinners, and we do not deserve heaven. We are imperfect creatures, and there is not ONE of us who is righteous. There is only ONE who is perfect, and that is Jesus Christ. He didn't come to die for perfect people, who would have no need for salvation. He came, he lived, and he died for SINNERS! He died for the abnormal people of this world! There are many people, including family, that may still be in denial about my son's condition, because they don't fully understand. Acceptance is difficult, but it is a CHOICE. I made my choice to accept the blessing God has given me. Otherwise, we would waste so much time wallowing in denial, and miss out on the growing process. He has hearing LOSS but he isn't totally deaf. Even if he was, I would have no lower expectations for him. He is SO SMART and I think that is also why many think that this is just a "phase" because he copes and compensates so well! He can read lips, and sign, and talk very well for a child of his impairment! The doctors themselves are amazed! That just goes to show that even though his hearing is limited, his possibilities are LIMITLESS! I know for sure, that with GOD there IS NO LIMITS! God can do anything with anybody, because ALL THINGS ARE POSSILBE THROUGH CHRIST! The only limits are the ones that we create ourselves. So, with this being said, society is always going to be thinking of ways to improve ourselves. There is all sorts of plastic surgery, botox, and enhancers of every kind and the industry will continue to grow. This world is so obsessed with how things look on the outside. That doesn't change that we all are the same on the inside. We all have a mind, a heart, and a purpose. Those are the things we should be looking at, because those are the things that count; the things that GOD looks at. Those are the kinds of things we should be looking to self-improve, for they are the things that last. My son does NOT have to change his appearance or his situation just to "fit in." I am proud of how God made him and will not ask God to take back a blessing. I am not going to sit in denial and hope that his hearing abilities will suddenly be perfect, and that he will be "normal" in the eyes of everyone. God made him this way, and will give him full hearing capabilities if he decides that He wants to. However, I don't think He will. God knew what he was doing when He made my son, and I trust that whatever God does or doesn't do with his ears is the BEST solution! He is the way he is for a reason, and he doesn't need to change to meet the world standards. THE WORLD needs to change to meet GOD'S STANDARDS!!!! October 25 Until It's GoneIn honor of my Uncle, who died 13 years ago today, I'm posting something I wrote a few years ago. I wrote this October 25, 1999. God bless all who read this!
Until It's Gone There is a saying that states, 'You don't know what you have until it's gone.' So many times in life, that saying is all too true. My uncle died while working underneath his car on October 25, 1993. The car was on ramps and car jacks and for some reason, God chose to take him home that day. My uncle was so talented. He could play various instruments, such as the guitar and the piano, so beautifully. He could even play by ear and compose his own songs. I had always hoped that one day, I would hear my uncle's songs on the radio and hear his name mentioned as one of the best music artists in the world. In the eyes of my family and I, however, he was already the best music artist in the world. God had blessed him with so many gifts. He also had the ability to make people laugh. He would often be able to cheer you up when you were down. He was very funny and very good at telling jokes and pulling tricks. My Uncle was a good man who was dearly loved by so many people. He was a great guy; a guy that I barely knew. Over the years since his tragic death, I have come to this realization. The guilt and the regret has been accumulating over time, and now, whenever I think of him, I think about all the times that might have been that never was. The distance between us was probably the main reason why I never saw him much. The only times I did see him was during the holidays or occasionally if my mom, brother, and I would stop in at his place to see him. I don't have very many memories of him, but the very few ones that I do have, I cherish deeply with all my heart. My mom always used to tell my brother and me how much our Uncle loved us. He would ask about us and mom would tell him how we were doing. I know we meant a lot to him, especially because we were his only niece and nephew. He didn't have children, and more and more I realize why he cared for us so much and loved us like we were his own. On October 25, 1999, six years after his death, I suddenly realized all of this. I had been listening to one of his songs that he had written. It was the first time I had heard his voice in a long time. For so long, I had avoided his music. I am not sure why. I don't think I really even realized it, but after listening to one song, I found out why. All the happy memories that I had and everything about him and what happened came back, and I cried. Then, I bawled. I had never cried so much for him before, not even at the funeral. Even when thinking about him occasionally, it didn't hit me as hard as it did at that single moment in time that night. I really felt empty, like I had lost so much when I lost him. Like the whole world lost so much when he left. I also cried because I was saddened by the fact that the world never got to hear his voice on the radio waves or in concerts around the world. All these feelings of loss, pain, anguish, and regret surfaced. He died when I was eleven years old. I had cried and missed him a lot, but not as much as I did at that moment. I can't believe it took me six years to finish my grieving process. Maybe it is because I felt like since I hadn't seen him much before, he had already been gone, and then, when he died, there wasn't much difference except that he was gone in a different way. I'm thankful that I did, finally, face the reality and fully grasp it. I now realize how much I really do miss him. This whole story came to me as I was grieving for him. Since I like to write and can easily express my emotions, I felt that this was the best way to feel better and give my Uncle something back. When I was crying, I asked God to just love and comfort me and he did. I began to calm down after that and then I said, "Even though I can't see you, I know that you can see me." After saying that, I realized that he wasn't really gone, that he was still with me in spirit. All of this compelled and inspired me to write this and dedicate it in his memory. Through my experience that night, I also realized something else. I was going through a sad time, and I acknowledged the fact that I needed God to help me and lift me up. I cried out to him, and he came near. It is so awesome to know that you have a friend that you can call on day or night. He is always there. He also, spoke to me. 'You don't always know what you have until it's gone,' was one of the first things that came to mind. Then, I began to think in depth. If my Uncle loved me so very much, how much more does Jesus love me? How much more would I cry on judgment day if I had not accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and received eternal life in Him? How much more regret would I have if my name was not in the book of life and I had to be tormented in hell for ALL eternity? How much MORE? When God revealed all of this to me, I was just in awe of Him, His power, and His mercy. Then, I felt God tell me to write all of this down. At first, I was reluctant. It was already 10:00 p.m. and I was very tired. However, I got up out of bed knowing I had to be obedient to God. He wanted me to write for a purpose, so I picked up my notebook and pencil and let God give me the words. I did not want it to be something else I might regret. I also did not want to put it off because of tiredness and thinking that maybe I was just imagining things and didn't really need to write this. I also knew that if I didn't write at that moment, I would lose all my inspiration, emotion, and conviction if I waited. I might not have even done it at all if I had procrastinated. I think God wants us to realize that we shouldn't take anyone or anything for granted. You never know when it's going to be taken away from you. Also, He wants us to know that he loved us so much that he died for us. What if Jesus had hesitated? What if he had decided not to go to the cross and die for our sins? Fortunately, we don't have to worry, because he did. He took our sins away and has no regrets. God doesn't want us to have regrets either. He doesn't want us to regret that we didn't realize what we could have had in Him until it was gone. October 23 The CureLord, I'll love you no matter what. No matter which door you open, or suddenly shut. I will praise you daily, even when I'm having a bad day. Praise and thankfulness conquers the darkness, and you take all the gloom away. You're there to speak to the hurt in my heart. You see me when I cry. You always make everything ok, even when I don't understand why. There is a lot in this world that I don't understand. There's a lot I'll never know. But regardless of what happens, you'll always be there. Your Word tells me so. No matter how much I long to be with you, and leave this world behind. I know that you have things for me to do. You have a special plan in mind. I would love to be with you now, but this world I will endure. I'll stay for my family, my friends, and the unsaved; for those who hurt and search for a cure. For those out there, who do not realize, that you are the remedy for every pain. Jesus, great healer, may they find you NOW. "The Great Physician" is your name! October 22 Who Wants Dessert?I don't know many people who don't LOVE dessert. I know I do! In fact, most people, when they try a dessert, love it so much that they want to share with someone. When something is good, you want others to sample it, right? I mean, you offer it to them and say, "Here, taste. It's good!" Often times, they do, and they agree and either ask them for more or order some dessert themselves. Then, there are those times, when they politely refuse and say, "No thanks. I don't want any." So is the case with Jesus. Jesus is the most delicious dessert you could ever imagine!! And, the best part is, it's guilt free dessert. Your thighs aren't going to take the hit for it. You can indulge in Jesus as much as you want. In fact, it's recommended! First thing is first, you have to sample and order the dessert first. No one is going to "cram it down your throat." So many times, I have people say not to cram religion down their throat or push my beliefs on someone else. For one thing, no one is pushing or cramming it into anyone. We all have a choice whethe or not to take it in or not. Simply talking about Jesus isn't pushing it on anyone. You're just doing what anyone else would do when they have something good in their life, you share it. Jesus died on the cross for my sins. He is the Lord and Savior of my life and in Him, I have eternal life. He removes all my guilt and sin. Jesus is the the ultimate guilt free reward and dessert!! Hallelujah!! Give me some more, Lord!!! Fill me up!! Do you need dessert in your life? Sample it. Read my blogs and taste that the Lord is good. Do you want to eat up the good life? Talk to me. I will introduce you to the Lord. I'm not going to cram any dessert down your throat, but once you taste it, I'll bet you that you can't get enough. If you refuse, that's fine, but the offer is always there. God bless you!! October 20 No More "Mourning" The MorningI am not a morning person. I lay there and pretend that I didn't wake up. It takes me forever to get my seemingly paralyzed body to move. The will to leave a soft, warm, comfy bed just doesn't sound like fun, so I prolong it as long as I can. With that being said, I am no longer "mourning" the mornings. I am learning how to enjoy getting up. It's all about attitude and perception. As soon as I wake up, I'm going to think of the Lord, say a little prayer, and thank him for the rest I had, and the bed I got to enjoy. Then, I'm going to pray some more, and start my day out right! That's what I did today. My son came into our room just as expected. So, I made a CHOICE to smile and embrace the day, and not roll my eyes and hope that he would give me a couple more minutes to nap. Once I acknowledged my son, and the blessing of a new day, I held out my arms so I could hug him. I showered him with love and smiles and cuddled him. I savored the moment and just enjoyed the fact that I woke up to enjoy another day and could be with my son. After that, he was out of the room for a moment, and I took some time to pray. Then, he came back, and I brought him on the bed with me and showed him that I was praying. So, he praying the prayer he always says when it's time to eat. LOL But, as I continued on, he held my hands, and closed his eyes, as he waited for me to finish. Then, he just looked at me. I'm sure as he begins to see the new change in how I greet the day, he will love it too. Then, I put some praise music on, and praised and danced. He joined me briefly, before I noticed that he really needed a diaper change. LOL Then, he was ready for breakfast. I continued praising and singing as the music played, as I walked around and started getting around for the day. I realized something today. Not only should we do this every morning of every day, but continue it on throughout the whole day. First impressions are EVERYTHING, and it applies here too. The fact that my day started out this way, made the WHOLE DAY BEAUTIFUL!! I felt peaceful and happy the whole day. However, it's not about what "I" can get out of it. It's a lot MORE than that. It's about praising, praying, and thanking God because he is GOD and he is WORTHY!!! He deserves every ounce of praise and glory, and it's not about making ourselves feel good. Sure, he brings us a peace and joy when we fellowship with him, but that's not why we worship. We worship because of all he does and how much he loves and blesses us. We worship because he deserves to be acknowledged and thanked. It's all about giving back to the one who gives to us. Having this attitude definitely has its benefits to self, but it has even more benefits to God. When you pray and praise him, you know that God is happy, and that he is glorified. The person giving the thanks feels as good as the person being thanked. It just keeps the circle unbroken. I am a sinful undeserving human being, but God loves me anyways. How could one not be grateful!! When you add that on top of the endless other things to thank Him for, how else can you feel but blessed, fulfilled, and joyous? You just realize how mighty and great he is, and you're in AWE! He truly is an awesome God! May all who read this be blessed! Here's to waking up joyful and and full of praise!! :) And a big thanks to Phil, from my small group, for being an example to me and telling me to "Just do it." AMEN! You just got to choose God....... choose to be grateful..... choose to pray and praise! October 18 I Wish I Were A Loser!Ok, I know this is weird for a blog of mine. In fact, this subject is more of a personal note. I guess I just want to say: I wish I were a loser! Ha ha. I'll bet anyone reading this is like, "say what?" LOL No, I mean not a "loser" I mean it as in "THE BIGGEST LOSER." I never watched the show prior to these last few weeks. I didn't think I was very keen on watching big people struggle to lose weight, or get weighed in front of America. However, I see myself in them. That could be me up there. If I didn't have young children to care for, I would be like, "Sign me up!" So, I'll just have to do this on my own. I just wish I had someone to help me and show me the way. I've lost some here and there, but I just wish I had someone to go along with me. I wish I had a better plan and commitment. Sometimes I feel stuck and like I don't know what to do next. If I only knew what would work for me best. Does anyone else wish they could be a loser? I sure do! If anyone has any tips on how to do it, or to help support me, I would love it. I think my biggest problem is knowing what to eat and how to deal with plateaus. I also have trouble with structure and organization. Ideally, I would like to get up early in the morning and work out before the kids wake up so I don't have to worry about trying to fit it in somewhere in the day. However, I am not a morning person. I am tired and sluggish when it comes to getting up. There is the other problem. I don't know what I need to do to elminate my chronic fatigue and crap that I feel all the time. What vitamins or minerals do I need? What should I do to find out? ARGH!! I just never know where to start. If anyone has a clue, CLUE ME IN!!! And, heads up to Hollywood, not everyone can afford a personal trainer and a personal chef, so that is out for me. ;) Sure, I would LOVE to go that route, but it's not going to happen for me. That always burns my butt about Hollywood. They act like it's so easy, and make it harder for the average guy or gal to achieve their goals, because most compare themselves to them. NOT ME! I'll never be Nicole Richie or Paris Hilton. (PRAISE THE LORD FOR THAT!) ;) Well, I guess I'm done venting and wondering out loud. I guess I will just have to work on a plan now, if I even know where to begin. Somebody help me! I want to be fit and well so I can be the best me I can be for God, for myself, and my family. I want to break the cycle in my family. I want to take charge of my life and be the me that I know is underneath all this ....... um, flab. :P Lord, HELP ME! What Is God Telling You Today?This sonnet came to me today. Read and digest. This applies to everyone, at every stage in life. Contemplate and ponder what God wants for you. Pray and listen..... truly listen, and follow HIS WILL and not your own. May we all become humble and unselfish.... lying our pursuits and ambitions at the door. God bless all who read this!
What Is God Telling You Today? By Melissa
What is God telling you today? Is he telling you to slow down? Is he telling you to pause on your way, And to stop and look around? What is God telling you today? What does he want you to see? Are you listening to what he has to say? He's saying, "Put your faith in me." What is God telling you today? Have you surrendered all? Are you listening to what he is trying to say? Do you see the writing on the wall? If you truly want answers in your life, this you must embrace: Change will only come when you TRULY seek His face! October 14 Glad I Don't Live in AlaskaWhile I have always heard how nice Alaska is, I don't think I would want to live there. I would love to visit, but yeah, wouldn't want to live there. When the days are so short that you only get a few hours of daylilght, it makes for a very lost sort of day. I don't think I could handle more darkness than light. I don't know how they do it up there without being depressed. Being that the days will be getting shorter soon, I'm not looking forward to it. There's something about bare trees, cold weather, and little sunlight that just feels a little empty. Maybe that is why they call it S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder). I think I have that to some degree. I already feel it setting in some. It certainly can depress you. I have learned, though, that small things like light exposure can help. Even if you just sit in front of a flourescent light, or have a little sunlight exposure or anything, it can help. It makes sense. Light certainly lifts the mood. With all this in mind, I can understand why we need Jesus so much. Jesus IS the light. Satan masquerades as light, but he is NOT the light. JESUS is the light, and in him, there is no darkness. Light overpowers darkness every time. Darkness cannot be in its prescence. Whatever light touches, the darkness is gone. For those of you living in darkness, I know it can't be fun. We all have dark times, but Jesus is always there to drive it away. I am so glad I have Him to be my light. Darkness is depressing, sad, and you lose yourself in it. You rob yourself of a full life and ultimately doom yourself to it. Call on the the light. Call on Jesus. He will bring you out of your darkness. Live and dwell in the light, and have blissful eternal life! :) October 08 VOTE!!!If you live in Indiana, the voter deadline is TODAY! Your voter registration form has to have today's postmark on it, so don't delay if you haven't registered!! Go to www.rockthevote.com for help! (If you don't live in IN, you can see the deadlines in your state, and register). In addition to that, don't let ANYTHING stop you from voting!!! It is SO VITAL that we don't let anything deter us from making sure our voice is heard! VOTE YOUR VALUES on election day!! Personally, I vote republican ALWAYS because I cannot support what the democrats stand for. As a Christian, I cannot willingly vote for a democrat, since they favor abortion and gay marriage, and all sorts of things that spit into the face of God. So, unapologetically, I've got to take a stand. We are accountable for our votes. PLEASE VOTE FOR THE LORD! With that being said, please take a look at this: http://www.family.org/cforum/extras/a0042242.cfm This is a link to an article about the Mark Foley scandal that doesn't come from the mouth of a plotting, coniving, devious liberal. Yes, what Mark Foley has done is wrong, but that in no way should deter us from staying away from the polls. This is a deliberate attempt on behalf of the liberals to get Christians to avoid going to the polls. They are desperate for their power back and they know that can only happen if "Values Voters" don't show up. I'm pleading with every Christian out there, PLEASE SHOW UP! VOTE YOUR VALUES!! Yes, there are a lot of bad politicians out there, and what Foley done is inexcusable. However, that doesn't mean that there are no good republicans. Take Mike Pence, for example. He is one of the best republicans out there and one that I am proud to vote for. He stand up for what is right, and he doesn't back down. He fears God more than men, and he listens to the voices of his voters. Once again, please check out the link I have provided. Don't stay home on account of the "republican scandal" which REALLY isn't a "republican" scandal, but simply Mark Foley's scandal. He is responsible for his own actions. The democrats are far from innocent, and the fact that Mark Foley is homosexual was a well known fact by them, and they were just waiting for the right time to drop a bomb shell to try to sway votes in their direction. Do not be fooled!!! God bless you all!!! VOTE VOTE VOTE!!! Does anyone read this? LOLBlogging seems rampid these days, but does anyone really read anyone else's blog? I wonder how many blogs there are out there. LOL Probably as many blogs as there are people in the world! Anyways, I do subscribe to one blog on www.myspace.com (If you want to see my myspace page, it's: http://www.myspace.com/missa_loves_the_lord ) I always read Heather's blog. I am always eager to read it when I see that she's posted another entry. Maybe it's because I never know what's going on in her soap opera life otherwise. LOL Geez girl, talk to me once in a while. Ha ha. Anywho, just in case someone cares, maybe I'll start posting more entries more often, on there, and see if I get any frequent readers. Likewise, I'll probably post the same stuff on this page as well. ;) Goodness knows I never shut up. I always have plenty to say. It might even be another good way to help others in need. God has given me a gift of writing, and the ability to help others relate to God in unique ways. I could pretty much look at anyone or anything and see how it relates to God. True too. EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE relates to God, because he made it all and knows all! So, until I think of something else to say, God bless you all and have a good day, or night, whatever it may be. October 01 The "MUST SEE" Movie Has Been Seen And It's UNBELIEVEABLE!!!Sunday, October 1, 2006 Not Another Football Movie! By Melissa Most girls roll their eyes at the idea of sports, and I am no exception. I’m not like my husband, or the countless other men in the world, who have to know the outcome and score of every sporting event under the sun. Sure, I do have a limited interest in sports, but they aren’t a high priority to me. Maybe that’s why, when I see a trailer for a new football movie, it doesn’t thrill me much. I don’t get all pumped up to see another version of the same movie I’ve seen before. Maybe guys have a different perspective, but to me, they are all the same. In every sports movie, you have a team that goes from being an “underdog” to a “top dog.” They overcome whatever obstacle seems to be facing them, and end up winning “the big game,” whatever that may be. With that being said, I braced myself for another movie rerun when I learned of a new movie entitled, “Facing the Giants.“ However, I was slightly more open minded when I read about the story line. Not only was it a clean, wholesome , PG rated movie, it also presented a side of sports that most ignore. This movie had an emphasis on more than just winning and winning until you become the champs. This movie description also talked about the victories BEYOND those on the field! When I also learned that the people who made this movie were also makers of the movie “Flywheel,” I knew it had to be good! (I don’t know how many people, who are reading this, have seen “Flywheel,” but that is another good movie worth watching, if you haven’t already done so). So, even though I don’t normally go for sports themed movies, I decided that this one would be worth it. I was eager to see if this movie would be any different than most “glory stories.” Quite to my surprise, and delight, I was surprisingly stunned, and blessed, by this movie. Not only was it radically different and superior to any sports movie I had ever seen, but it was so profoundly true!! EVERYONE should see this movie, because it relates to absolutely everyone! I don’t want to give too much away, but if EVER there was an absolute must see, this is IT! Hardly anything in the entertainment world is worth seeing anymore, but this truly is a gem. I doubt the media will give it the praise it deserves, so I WILL. My kudos goes to the ones who made such a brilliant and touching film! So, is anyone on the edge of their seat yet? You sure will be when you go see this! I’m not hyping this up either, it REALLY IS THAT GOOD!!! So, I’ll elaborate a little more on it. The Eagles are having a rough start to the football season. The coach is frustrated and frazzled. He’s been at the school six years and hasn’t managed to do much with the team. He just can’t get a solid winning season, and behind the scenes, there is talk of firing him. As if having his job on the line isn’t bad enough, he’s also having other problems. The coach and his wife are struggling with every possible thing breaking down in their house and their old beater of a vehicle has nearly broken down on them for good. And, to top it all off, they are having trouble starting a family. The coach is at his wits end, and he doesn’t know what to do. So, with a lot of prayer, and some advice from an old friend, he embarks on a new game strategy that will not only transform the football team, but the attitudes and lives of everyone! It’s almost impossible for me to elaborate on this movie without giving away all the surprises and blessings that it holds. So, let’s just say that this movie isn’t always predictable. There are many wonderful twists in the journey, which will leave you laughing, cheering, and maybe even tearing up. God truly had his hand in the making of this movie. It is absolutely PHENOMENAL! That may sound like an exaggeration, but this is one movie you HAVE to see for yourself. I was absolutely captivated and riveted by this movie, and I’m so EAGER to see it again! The life lessons in here go “beyond football” as one character in the movie put it. You sure can tell when God has blessed something, because this isn’t your typical Hollywood movie. I’m so thankful for that, because we need MORE movies like this. “Facing the Giants,” is genuine, exciting, compelling, and even funny, all without foul language or crude references. This is one hundred percent positive and engaging. The discipline and determination that the coach instills in the players will spill out of the screen and into the audience as they watch the shift from “getting the glory for self” to “GIVING the glory to GOD.” This movie truly shows how God is in EVERYTHING, even FOOTBALL, and with him, all things are possible….on and off the field!! I’m not trying to be a movie critic or push this review out there for any personal reason, or benefit. I just simply went to see a movie, and came away feeling empowered and awed. When something makes you feel that great, you want to share it with somebody, and I felt led to share it with anyone who wants to hear it. This movie isn’t the type that blindly entertains and has no point or plot. “Facing the Giants,” has a plot and a purpose. It has substance and character and it’s truly a pleasure to enjoy. If you REALLY want to “see what’s playing,” you got to watch the Eagles play in, “Facing the Giants.” See how this unstoppable game strategy constitutes a winning game plan! Watch the miracles and blessings unfold as the people learn how to defeat the “giants” in their lives, both on and off the field, and learn what TRUE VICTORY IS!!! |
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